hollow bones...

It's almost one year to the date that we lost Ras...

November 14th...we're doing the Candlelight Bowl charity event next Saturday night...

It's gonna be a rough night, but also a fun one...

We getting it in kid....everyone's invited!!

for real tho.

someone point me to the nearest tall building so i can proceed to jump off of it.


i'm feeling like a tragedy is going to happen very soon...to me?...iono, possibly...

but something is going to go down :|

FML right now kid...no doubt...let me out ASAP.

rainy days.

so I'm having a decent day...the Bears won...i'm leading the football pool...had a few drinks...grilled some burgers & hot dogs...

but for some reason my mood just took a major dip...i feel like disappearing from everything right now at this exact moment.

blah....bout to go play some Mood Muzik.

we outta here.

sooo...

it's been a long time...i shouldn't have left you...but i had things to do...effects to get in order...

maybe i'll become a regular blogger again...give random updates about what i'm going through...but really, who the hell wants to read about me?


well i'm out for now...catch up people...i move fast.

Jeezuz H. Criste

finally Friday...it's been a long week of nothing but work...so now the weekend is here & I'm going hard tomorrow to relax my mind...

sitting in the barbershop now about to get cut up...yeeeeeah.


so exhausted tho...

Wu-Tang nigga, that's wassup.

easy like sunday morning.

so i finally stuck to a plan i told myself i would do...said i'd stay in tonite & i did...yeah man.


Tajuana, Tasha, Sam, Inaija & the rest of the bunch came through today...me & Tasha worked on the song for Ras's Party...& we all went over details for the party...it's gonna be a sad day but also a great day at the same time...memories of Ras will be floating all over the place...


other than that i been playing PS3 all day & watching sports...sweeeeeeet.


i'm off here...gonna kick back & relax...take notes.

blind.

this stupid headache..

started above my right eye now it's spread thru my whole head.

rather annoying.



eh.

starving.

how the hell did i wake up at 12 today...lol


so i planned on staying in this weekend but i knew that wasn't gonna happen...Ras's girl came by yesterday so we could go over some details for his memorial party...hopefully it all turns out great...i gotta hurry up & memorize my verse for the song i have to perform with her sister..'m slacking....

werd.life


so we hit the club of course..i was supposed to head to the south side & go to this new lounge with my cuzzo & his people...that got changed & me & my homies ended up going to Crush...i'm really starting to think i'm insane lol...i do shit just because it pops in my head at that exact moment....i love it.

no one was safe as long as i was around..haha...i hate thinking people are bored so if i see someone that looks bored, ur gonna become a victim of something random from me...one of my guys wanted to dance with this female cuz she was tall (he loves em tall)...so i go up to her & make small talk...so she starts dancing with me ha...i'm like i really came over here so my guy could dance & talk with u...so sje's like oh i really don't feel like dancing with anyone...could've sowrn u were just all on me moving...correct me if i'm wrong but that is called dancing hun..

this girl my friend is talking to came up there with her friends right when we were about to leave to go meet my cuzzo & his guys at Betty's since they stay open til 5...she hits us with the "yall ain't going nowhere cuz we just stood in line for all that time to cme party with yall!"...& since i didn't drive i was stuck....so after hours of being eyeball raped by almost all of her friends & being grabbed by random females (not to mention being touched in random places by chicks while we were making our way thru the crowd to leave...weird) we all finally left & headed to Greektown to get our eat on...where i proceeded to act a fool in the restaraunt :)

got in around 6:30...the fuck.


that's wassup.

jesus juice.

these fucking gummy bears are delicious.


side note...i'm kinda pissed everyone is coming out the damn woodworks asking for money from me today....i've already dished out $200 today & my damn phone is still ringing....it's getting annoying.


i'm almost tempted to once again get rid of my cell phone.


i think i'ma go out tomorrow nite to ease my mental anguish :)


fuck the world...don't ask me for shit.


unless ur washer machine girl ;)


bwahahahaha...i joke, i joke...i kid i kid.

stop, chill.

so glad it's Friday...& I work a half day today...yay for me clowns!


so I'm just chillin' in the barber shop..guess i'll get cut before work...grab something to eat since I missed waking up early (yet again) to get McDonalds breakfast...

werd.

P.S. - Slaughterhouse is ill.

cash still rules/scary hours.

just finished getting ready...since i got called in early today...great way to come off the weekend.


so now my hours are changed to 9:30-6 today, unless i decide to stay even later.


sucks....that's what i get for staying up late playing the PS3...lol.


fucking right doggy.

early.

Jeezuz H. Criste i dislike waking up early in the A.M.


Wednesday this gay patient tried to holler at me at work...if i was homophobic that would bother me...all i know though is i tried my best not laugh the whole time we were dealing with him...but oooooo the nurses just had a great time with that whole situation...just tickled their punk asses pink that he was doing his best to get my attention...fucking bitches...


anyway...getting ready to go to Ras's daughter's school...Chicago's school system has this Real Men Read program & he used to go read to her class...so today is her also her birthday & she kept asking is Uncle Slim gonna read to me for my birthday?...i'ma try to hold it down like he did...& i'ma eat up all of her bday cupcakes too...already told i was when she called me talking crazy a couple of weeks ago lol..

plus her & i are gonna have some words when i see her in a lil bit...her mom told me she got in trouble at school yesterday...for writing something very bad on the bathroom door about another little girl she doesn't like & then signing another little girl's name to it...hahahahahaha!


i won't lie...i laughed when she told me...just gotta make sure i don't laugh when i see her...lol...but i'ma nut so i know i'ma fail at that.


anyway...gotta get outta here & head to the south side to do this.



werd.life

yoooow.

got my test results back this morning.

mild case of flux.

i'm healthy bitch!


just gotta play it safe when i decide to go hard from now on...lol.


FMdrinkingL.

another trip.

finally Thursday...going for round 2 of the tests...gotta get my CT Scan

so now I'm wasting time getting a haircut before I go to the hospital..

time for me to hop in the chair...i'll get at yall later.

Been a long time..

so i got my EGD for my stomach done yesterday...& of course since i was sedated i remember none of it...now is the wait for the biopsy results...

i do have some ugly pics of the inside of my belly tho...interesting lol.

Thursday i go for the CT Scan...


i'll be glad when all of this shit is over & they figure out whatever the hell it is that makes it hurt.


i don't feel like typing anymore...

werd.

pain in his life.

my stomach pains are the worst.


to the doctor i go again tomorrow.

Out Of Towner.

getting ready to head out to Indianapolis for the night...

we're gonna make the drive just to go clubbing...lol...my homie out there needs to get out & have some fun...the married life is cool but you still need have the time to hang out with your friends.


let me go finish packing my bag & what not...


werd.

Friday it is.

kinda tired lol....caught the midnite showing of Watchmen last nite...decent flick...i'd say it stayed true to the book 80 % of the time...overall a good piece of work...


so now I'm off work today...which is also a good thing...good shit for me...now what to do today.


so I'm sitting in the barber shop as we speak...chillin...gotta get cut up just in case ya know.

just rambling.

repeat.

"she be calling my name
screaming real loud i would think she in pain
niggas tried to tell me her head was insane
everything she do it take a toll on my brain
it seem a lil strange but she be calling my name"

Joe Budden - Exxxes (on repeat)

unloaded.

the weekend has come & gone...felt like a vacation for me cause i had been waiting all week for it..


got together with my friends & some co-workers Saturday night at the club...Blu Coral...which i realized while i was in there is like this other club Boutique with more space..straight hood.

stayed at Blue Coral til like 1:30..after i left there i continued up the blocks to Betty's & met my crew up there...who at 2AM were still in the car drinking & not even in the club yet..lol

i brought my lil brother out that nite too (he's 21...love watching the young kids in the club setting..lol)


we chopped it up in VIP...copped a bottle of Patron & took shots for the rest of the nite...& of course after we left Betty's around 4:45 we had to head to Greektown to get food...the usual.

Sunday consisted of me laying in bed pretty much ALL day relaxing & watching sports..plus my eyes were hurting...got up like 3 times...once to shower & twice to eat.


that's what i call a weekend.

A.M. Radio.

so i'm up early for no reason now.

i had a reason but that got voided 30 seconds after i rose up.


so now i have no excuses to not handle some things i should've been done since i am up this early...which means now i have to spend some money on this lovely damp Thursday.


hopefully i can finish my errands & make it to the barbershop before work.


werd.life

kinda upset.

gotta work & that's gonna prevent me heading to the Metro tonite & seeing Buckshot.



stupid employment.

Joe Budden.

Padded Room drops today...even though i've already had it since last week, i'm still going to buy it cause i support artists that i actually enjoy hearing.

cop that CD, album, digital copy...whatever it is you prefer...support.

clocks.

time can be the worst thing ever...nah i lie...cuase it can also be the best thing.


only when ur in a bad mood does it not help.


too much time to think when you're alone....
when you want the day to go by faster, the clock ticks even slower...
when things are negative in your life, they seem to play in slow motion in your mind...

i dislike my life at the moment...who doesn't have these kinds of days?


mine just seem to happen more than others.


eh.

back without leaving....i'm here.

i finally made my way back to blogging on this site..

since this is my first post, i'm just going to keep it simple.


more to come.